:'(

May Allah gather us among the few servants

ameen..

..::The perks of being a kpoper::..

Assalamualaikum & hye

Yeah tajuk kemain lagha

Aku tuleh sebab aku tak dak keja

and best friend aku request untuk aku update blog selalu

setiap hari kalau boleh

sebab dia cakap dia lagi suka aku potpet cotcet dekat blog

kalau through mesej aku lagi annoying dia kata

Another reason is because 
aku tak mau keluaq pi tapak konvo sebab aku tak konvo lagi

wakaka

but actually batch aku yang konvo this year aku tak kenai sangat pun

tu antara hikmah konvo next yearla

insyaAllah kami konvo ramai-ramai 1 lab (or 2 lab) tahun depan

Anddddd

sebab best friend aku tak bagi aku continue baca buku ni

Yeah I bought this book (malay version) last month 

Aku ada english version jugak versi pdf

aku tak abeh lagi baca

and she told me to quit reading the book

and follow cakap dia on some matters

Aku dah follow cakap dia

tapi sikitla tak semua

so maybe aku akan sambung baca jugak nanti haha

aku beli kot rugi la tak baca

So occay back to the topic

Aku bukan la die hard fan sangat

sebab aku tak beli pun album merchandise bagai

Tapi aku rasa aku memang dah terpengaruh dengan hidup depa

1) Passion

Hard working? Tu just mukaddimah ja ok

 They live their life with passion

Sebab tu depa macam non stop cakap

"We will give a better work next time."

Walaupun memang boleh nampak depa usaha 

bagai nak gila dah

Sampai kadang-kadang aku speechless tengok tahap depa berusaha

yeah their ultimate muse is most probably money

tapi still, ada ja jenih manusia buat kerja sebab duit

and end up bagi crappy work

menyusahkan jemaah manusia yang lain dengan kerja cincai dia

dah tu, kalau dah high level position siap buli orang bawahan

suruh buat kerja dia

Tu tak cerita part kena hadap boss yang perfectionista lagi

Ok stop takat tu dulu

Nak ceritanya, aku still dok polish passion yang ada dalam diri aku

Susah la nak istiqomah semangat berkobar-kobar 24/7

2) Humble

Well at least I am a fan (bukan kipas okay) of very humble groups

Sebab depa bukan dari big company

company yang nyaris bankrupt just before 

depa menang dalam carta lagu

So depa ni jenih manusia sedaq diri

and bagi depa, it's okay untuk kenang selalu sapa 

diri kita yang sebenaqnya

contohnya, hang dari company yang hampir bankrupt

hang ada skill tapi tak sehebat orang lain,

so jangan bajet baguih, kena usaha lebih

contoh lain, hang kena sedaq

hang takdaklah menarik sangat

as in, ramai lagi yang lagi handsome dari hang

so jangan bajet baguih

fokus dengan kelebihan & skill yang hang ada

Aku tak dakla lemah lembut sopan santun sangat

Tapi seriously, la ni dah jadi habit aku bow dekat orang

sebagai tanda hormat or terima kasih 

Hari tu aku bow (nasib tak 90°) dekat orang stop motor & kereta

masa aku nak melintas jalan

Wey Mimie culture kita angkat tangan pun dah cukup kot

Sebab dah selalu tengok depa bow dekat semua orang
Fans, mc, cameraman, pak cik tanya jalan
even dekat another singers pun 
tak kisahla junior or senior

Tula ironinya, bila kita nampak 'Islam' tu 

lebih dekat orang bukan Islam

3) Anak mak

In other word, family first

Ada ja video-video depa ghiyau sebab family

Yala la once join jadi trainee memang susah sangat nak balik rumah

so dah kurang masa dengan family

And most of them bukan dari family senang

Depa la yang bayaq hutang-hutang family

And set up new life untuk family

Then dok throwback pulak zaman kecik-kecik

and tak sangka boleh berjaya (by their own definition)

sampai tahap la ni

Dengan-dengan aku sekali burst into tears

4) Brotherhood

A.k.a bromance

Bukan kunyit ok

Aku seriously rasa disturb dengan penggunaan kunyit

Kunyit tu makanan kot

Anyway, depa memang jenih menjaga ukhwah

sebab depa berpegang teguh dengan slogan

"Teamwork makes the dream work"

Seriously this is another part yang buat aku burst into tears selalu

Since aku selalu rasa aku berjuang sorang-sorang

wakaka

Aku jealous tengok depa yang 1 group 7 orang

so 7 orang sama-sama bersusah payah 

untuk mencapai cita-cita

Whoa.. bestnya..

Ok cukup la takat ni

Aku dah melalut banyak dah ni

Ikut hati nak ja lagi elaborate 

part makan banyak tapi berat tak naik

part rajin masak & rajin belajaq masak 

sebab dah jenih makan banyak sangat

part jaga kulit

part work out jaga stamina

Like seriously sometimes aku rasa

their lifestyle are healthier than mine

And that's the reason why aku jadi rare I think

Makhluk rare yang selalu ada krisis identiti

The living weirdo

..:: BS&T Journey::..

Assalamualaikum & hye

AlhamduLillah, hari yang di tunggu-tunggu sepanjang 3 tahun (+- 2 tahun, 11 bulan, 6 hari) telah pun tiba. Mimie is finally done with her Msc's journey!

Since aku bersusah payah photoshoot thesis sendiri so, bagi la chance nak tepek dekat sini. Aku selfie dengan thesis 3 hari berturut-turut kot, sebab nak tunggu endorsement yang bertingkat-tingkat tu. 

But anyway since la ni time konvo USM so ramai jugak yang tanya; 

"Awat terlepas deadline untuk konvo tahun ni?" "Awat baru nak submit?" The only answer for those awat questions is,

Because that is Allah's plan for me. And I myself, trust His plan is the best.

"Allah's timing is perfect in every matter. We don't always understand the wisdom behind it, but we have to learn to trust it."- Dr Bilal Philips

"It's all connected. Your gifts, your circumstances, your purpose, your imperfections, your journey, your destiny. It's molding you, embrace it. Remember that Allah is intentional. He is not punishing you. He is preparing you for what He created you for. Stay patient. Different flowers blossom at different speeds." -Quranquotesdaily

If people asked me the thing I've learned the most in these 3 years I would say I've learned in a hard way that, hard work + hard pray + hard faith will never betray us, insyaAllah.

May Allah bless

#endofbloodsweatandtearsjourney

#konvonextyearinsyaAllah

..:: Happy 26th Birthday Mimie ::..

Assalamualaikum & hye

AlhamduLillah hari ni ada rezeki nak post 2 entri dekat blog

Kalau yang sebelum ni pasal thesis, yang ni pasal cinta

uhuk uhuk

AlhamduLillah makin aku tua ni abah aku makin 

caring and loving dekat aku

Maybe sebab anak dara dia makin straighforward so

Dia tak mau ketinggalan dalam nak mengekspresikan cinta

Pagi-pagi tadi abah call sebab nak wish birthday

siap buat lawak lagi ingat yang ke 21

Abah aku bukan jenih peramah ok

so kalau abah buat lawak, itu bermaksud 

abah sangatlah berusaha untuk membahagiakan

his only daughter
AlhamduLillah, I'm so happy and grateful to have abah in my life

Ok now to avoid me myself got homesick attack
let's throwback to this post

Ni wrapping paper hadiah yang lawaaa bangett

Instead of a card, I got a book of birthday wishes

Yeahh best friend aku amatlah kreatif & girlish seninya

Dia selalu bagi benda pink pink dekat aku

Sebab dia tak mau aku lupa jati diri sebagai seorang perempuan

pfftt

Btw, even dah text and cakap tadi still nak say 

Thank you bae sebab karang buku sebuah, bagi hadiah-hadiah, nyanyi happy birthday tadi and yang paling penting..

Thank you for coming into my life, and never left.

You have no idea how grateful I am to have you as my best friend.

Let's be best friend till Jannah!

May Allah bless

..:: 23/10/2017; A teaser ::..

AlhamduLillah ala kullihal

Allah bagi hadiah best yang amat pada hari ni!!

Actually lately aku emo sebab tak berjaya konvo tahun ni 

But anyway, konvo lambat just end of the dream ja pun

Bukan end of the world pun kan?

Yeah it's kinda torturing bila tengok orang nak konvo

Kita pun dah ada hardbound thesis tapi tak boleh join konvo sekali

Ni nama dia thesis yang tercicir dari deadline

I really tried my best to complete everything 

but things didn't work as I planned

Well it just the matter of fate

All those people were sent as a test for me

Allah has greater plan for me, I know

Oh Allah, this 26 years old Mimie are very grateful for everything

for countless blessings that You gave

May Allah grant me a blessed, blissful and successful life

in this world and hereafter 

Ameenn ameen Ya Robbal alamin

"Redha starts when you don't question why anymore."

:)

..:: 💐 ::..

Assalamualaikum & hye

Since the date is approaching

khemah pesta konvo pun dah naik

so I have to heal my self fast

Harini aku nak spill something

This 💐 emoticon in all those posts in my soc med

is actually referring to my feeling to wrap up my Msc journey

Why bunga?

Sebab aku rasa buah macam kurang feeling di situ

Remember the quote

'orang baling batu kita baling buah' ?

ok for my case,

'orang baling batu aku baling bunga balik'

emoticon buah-buahan macam tak berapa attractive so yeah

suka hati aku la nak bagi bunga

Everyone ada fasa jatuh bangun dalam hidup

I acknowledge that

So aku tau ja bukan aku sorang ja sengsara dalam nak kejar cita-cita

But still since konvo aku delay setahun insyaAllah
 aku bukan robot

and aku perempuan

so aku ada hak la kan nak emo-emo

hiung hiung

I know I have to move on

Accept my fate whole heartedly
It was my destiny to be tortured and treated unfairly
This is a test for me
Everything that is 'keep' by Allah is the best
All the things happened are only by Allah's will 
And there must be reasons behind it
Keep  calm, sabr and pray, things will be fine

But yeah things are easier said than done aite

But anyway, Allah dah janji kan bersama kesulitan tu

ada kemudahan & kesenangan

AlhamduLillah untuk rahmat & rezeki yang tak putus-putus

Few days back girls dekat lab & lab sebelah buat party

Surprise bertingkat-tingkat

Bridal shower for bride to be

(Congrats Lisa & Haris!!)

Advance birthday party for October babies

(nanti la wish dekat Aimie)

and farewell party

(annyeong El~)

These girls are actually salah satu kurniaan terindah untuk aku

I was all alone when I started my Msc journey

(I have been in long distance relationship with my bff since undergrad fyi)

AlhamduLillah, Allah sent me people with good heart

to accompany me

to help me

and be with me

They are truly adorable little sisters

(except Diyanah Ismail yang lahiaq dulu dari aku)

and yeah they keep cheering me when I was lonely

sebab best friend jauh kan..

oh ya, semua depa kenai ang

I am truly feel blessed with the presence of amazing people

like you guys

I pray that Allah will grant all of you the best

in this life and hereafter

ameen

3/10/2017

Tempat: Rooftop rumah sewa Ran

Main dish: Catering tentera ayah Didi

Cup cakes: Order dekat Fiqa & Diyanah

Yang turut berpenat lelah: Mun, Rom, Ayu, Syud

Yang tak hadir sebab pi Hokkaido: Hannah

Farewell gift from our youngest

Since youngest kan so

maafkanlah kekhilafan dia dalam menginterpetasi

hukum alam

Aku tak tau cena dia boleh kata 

aku show a good example for being a muslimah kpopers

pengsan ustaz ustazah naqib naqibah aku kot

So, please pray the best for me!

Untuk aku boleh move on dengan jayanya insyaAllah

May Allah bless

💐