Friday, July 21, 2017

..:: In the end ::..


It starts with
One thing I don't know why
It doesn't even matter how hard you try
Keep that in mind, I designed this rhyme
To explain in due time
All I know
Time is a valuable thing
Watch it fly by as the pendulum swings
Watch it count down to the end of the day
The clock ticks life away
It's so unreal
Didn't look out below
Watch the time go right out the window
Trying to hold on but didn't even know
I wasted it all just to watch you go

I kept everything inside and even though I tried, it all fell apart
What it meant to me will eventually be a memory of a time when...

I tried so hard
And got so far
But in the end
It doesn't even matter
I had to fall
To lose it all
But in the end
It doesn't even matter

One thing, I don't know why
It doesn't even matter how hard you try
Keep that in mind, I designed this rhyme
To remind myself how
I tried so hard
In spite of the way you were mocking me
Acting like I was part of your property
Remembering all the times you fought with me
I'm surprised it got so (far)
Things aren't the way they were before
You wouldn't even recognize me anymore
Not that you knew me back then
But it all comes back to me
In the end

You kept everything inside and even though I tried, it all fell apart
What it meant to me will eventually be a memory of a time when...

I tried so hard
And got so far
But in the end
It doesn't even matter
I had to fall
To lose it all
But in the end
It doesn't even matter

I've put my trust in you
Pushed as far as I can go
For all this
There's only one thing you should know
I've put my trust in you
Pushed as far as I can go
For all this
There's only one thing you should know

I tried so hard
And got so far
But in the end
It doesn't even matter
I had to fall
To lose it all
But in the end
It doesn't even matter



Seriously aku terkesan dengan apa yg jadi dekat Chester
Aku bukan die hard fan LP
Tapi memang lagu LP tak pernah takda dalam 
phone yang boleh buh mp3 yang aku pernah ada
And since 4 hari lepas aku keep humming in the end
for few reasons

Tapi alhamduLillah emosi aku semakin stabil since kemaren
And semalam alhamduLillah kena basuh dekat usrah
Pagi tadi memang terkejut tahap dewa

Well kalau tengok apa yang aku takdak la ni,
dia dah ada/ pernah ada kot
but still he commit suicide

LP memang dah ada nama di atas muka bumi
Dah buat duit berkoyan-koyan
Tak pernah jatuh teruk since debut
Kira dah berjaya sangat dah la tu
In fact bakal ada comeback tour dalam masa terdekat
Tak jumpa true love?
Yang tu wallahualam
2 kali kawen kan?

Bab depression ni memang susah untuk difahami
sebab aku sendiri pun ada masa aku emo
down
sampai rasa emotionless
listless
I don know if tu dikira mild depression or just emotion rush


Tapi seriously, satu ja nak conclude
Orang kenal Tuhan/alim pun belum tentu lagi boleh lari dari depression
Tambah la orang yang suam-suam kuku

Please Mimie
Belajaq & amal lebih lagi

You know enough how totally crap this world is
And as umat akhir zaman please la take action
Takkan nak emo ja setiap kali kena attack dengan orang jahat?
Your depression just give them victory in so many ways
And yes, then you just sit back or sleep and doing nothing

And yes you know this since forever
Nobody gonna fight for Allah's blessing for you
Nobody gonna fight for your place in Jannah
At least for now
Ang bukan ada anak lagi

So, in the meantime, please
Keep on fighting
Because in the end
it does matter



May Allah bless














Wednesday, July 19, 2017

..:: Glass bridge ::..





Assalamualaikum & hye

Aku ada baca post pasal move on
Ni & ni
Somehow banyak point yg betul

And now I'm referring move on dengan kejatuhan
When we already fight all that we can
We give the best that we can
But it's still not enough for others

:')

Sometimes you can shed the tears while trying to get up
But if the tears are overflowing,
just try to get up and move on
Because you got no time to wait till the tears dried up
Your golden moment to reach your dream
never come twice sometimes

Success is belong to Allah
Allah will grant it to His slave sometimes
or otherwise in other time

Have faith in Allah's plan
and sabr
Always
Just like the other day

Just keep on moving forward



Howling moon
It has been so while
In the silence
And if you believe
In my little world
Tomorrow will
Have a wonder
Don’t know where to go..
Tell me for sure
That you won’t leave me here alone
I need to know
You will, I believe
When I do need someone to hold
You’ll be here

Little voice I hear, yeah maybe
Maybe no, who’s to say
Slowly drowning in after wave
After wave, who to say

Then I cross a bridge for
Over million reasons to hold on
Hide away with me
Walk away with me
Then we cross a bridge for
Over million troubles to meet
Nothing is easy
Nothing is easy

Huu hoo ho.. hoo ho
Hoo ho..

Oh how well you see?
How will you try, How?
However I mean to you now
Try.. hiayaiiyaii

Then I cross a bridge for
Over million reasons to hold on
Hide away with me
Walk away with me
Then we cross a bridge for
Over million troubles to meet
Nothing is easy
Nothing is easy

-Savina & Drones-








Tuesday, July 18, 2017

17/7/2017







10/10/2014 - 17/7/2017


AlhamduLillah, walau jauh dari mak abah, family & good companions, Allah hadirkan tentera-tenteraNya utk menolong hambaNya yang lemah ni. Thanks Fiqa, Diyanah & Syud (Syud xboleh ikut tadi :( we miss you Syud). Sebab hadir dari tarikh yang tercatat di atas tu sampai hari ni. Hari Asmimie Asmawarnie Azizan selamat menempuhi vivanya, alhamduLillah. Semoga persahabatan ini kekal sampai syurga macam nama group WhatsApp kita insyaAllah. Ameenn



Hanya Allah ja yang mampu balas segala jasa, kasih sayang & kebaikan kalian. 

May Allah bless you guys always my babies. Ameenn




Assalamualaikum & hye

Atas tu insta update semalam
Buat tatapan 1 of my good companion

AlhamduLillah 'ala kullihal

Done with viva
Ada rezeki boleh submit thesis correction before deadline,
insyaAllah boleh grad tahun ni

After all these 2 years & 8 months
ranting about Msc's life,
it'll come to the end soon insyaAllah

Satu ja nak conclude
Ujian tu tetap ada untuk orang yang beriman
Tak kisah la study or kerja or jadi suri rumah etc

Even kpop groups yang bukan Islam pun kena uji
(motiffff mention kpopop dekat sini)
Yala, tu one of motivation's source for me in reaching for my dreams
kome suka bola game main masak-masak tu preference kome

Haa back to the point
even depa tu pun kena uji
penat lelah bertahun-tahun untuk berjaya dan terus berjaya

Kita orang beriman ni tak kan la terkecuali dari ujian kan

Plus point untuk kita is,
Allah takkan sia-siakan segala penat lelah,
rintihan, tangisan & kesabaran
Kalau kita buat sesuatu kerana Allah

You may cry out loud all that you want to Allah
And Allah will heal the pain after the pain
And grant you His bless insyaAllah

I am very grateful that at this moment,
I still survive in
my blood, sweat and tears journey

May Allah keep me strong always
May Allah bless

#bloodsweatandtearsjourney






Sunday, July 16, 2017

..:: 16th July ::..



Assalamualaikum & hye

To you 
(you know who you are)
Nah
Aku tuleh belakang note book time study
Kutukla la tulisan aku kalau nak
Aku bagi can
Sebab orang tua harus dihormati







At the end of hardship comes happiness
insyaAllah

Let's fight together unnie

May Allah bless


Monday, July 10, 2017

..:: Wrap up battle ::..


Assalamualaikum & hye

AlhamduLillah my best buddy yang tak reply mesej sampai aku meroyan hari tu dah reply mesej
Even things still tak macam dulu kala
But still better la dari takdak langsung kan
  So aku pun dah tak meroyan pasal tu

Aku ada benda baru untuk diroyankan
(This life, (hu)man..)
Cuak tahap dewa tak tipu
Cena nak bagi tak lupa benda yang aku nak cakap?
Cena nak bagi tak terkaku sebab nervous sangat?
Cena nak bagi aku boleh jawab semua soalan dengan tak merapu?

(Hu)Mannnn

Seriously aku jeles tengok budak-budak muda yang tangkas di atas pentas
(ya, my kpopopopop thingy)
Takdak stage fright langsung ka depa ni?
Mana dapat confidence to the moon and back tu?
Kecik-kecik dulu makan apa?

Aku ni dahla tak bijak mana
Selalu bagi SV aku down dengan aku
Dah tu not a good public speaker pulak tu

Aku doakan Allah sabarkan SV aku tu banyak-banyak dengan aku
Nak penutup dah ni


Do your very best Mimie
Do it Lillahhitaala
InsyaAllah
Allah will help you till the very end

He brought you there
And He will never leave you alone

Himnae!!

:)














Wednesday, July 5, 2017

..:: It's not okay ::..


To you who didn't reply any text of mine



I don’t care about anything

As long as you smile
I will always stand by your side like this
And protect you
I don’t care if it’s not me
The person who makes you smile
I’m happy with just seeing you brightly smile

I just wanna protect you

I wish you would always smile happily
If you smile, I smile too, really
I don’t care if it’s not me
The person who makes you happy
I don’t care if it’s not me
If you can smile

I don’t care if you make me cry

If only you can smile
I’m happy with just seeing you brightly smile

I just wanna protect you

I wish you would always smile happily
If you’re happy, I’m happy too, really
I don’t care if it’s not me
The person who makes you happy
I don’t care if it’s not me
If you can smile
But this is all a lie

I want to protect you

I wish I was always with you
Even if we are far apart
Let’s hold back our tears and be happy
Don’t say it’s not me
The person who will make you happy
Don’t say it’s not me
Don’t say it’s not me



#Rulermasterofthemaskost
#InfiniteL
#Ouranothermemory


Saturday, July 1, 2017

..:: To Allah I rely ::..


Fall Fall Fall, scattering apart
Fall Fall Fall, falling
Because of you, I’m becoming ruined
I wanna stop, I don’t want you anymore
I can’t do it, this sucks
Please don’t give me any excuses
You can’t do this to me
All of the things you said are like a mask
It hides the truth and rips me apart
It pierces me, I’m going crazy, I hate this
Take it all away, I hate you
But you’re my everything You’re my
Everything You’re my
Everything You’re my
Please go away huh
I’m sorry I hate u
I love you I hate u
Forgive me
I need you girl
Why am I in love alone, why am I hurting alone
I need you girl
Why do I keep needing you when I know I’ll get hurt?
I need you girl, you’re beautiful
I need you girl, you’re so cold
I need you girl I need you girl
I need you girl I need you girl
It goes round & round, why do I keep coming back
I go down & down, at this point, I’m just a fool
Whatever I do, I can’t help it
It’s definitely my heart, my feelings but why don’t they listen to me
I’m just talking to myself again, talking to myself again
I’m just talking to myself again, talking to myself again
You’re not saying anything, please, I’ll treat you well
But the sky is blue, the sky is blue
The sky is blue and the sun is shining
So my tears are even more noticeable
Why is it you? Why did it have to be you?
Why can’t I leave you?
I need you girl
Why am I in love alone, why am I hurting alone
I need you girl
Why do I keep needing you when I know I’ll get hurt?
I need you girl, you’re beautiful
I need you girl, you’re so cold
I need you girl I need you girl
I need you girl I need you girl
Girl, just tell me you wanna break up
Girl, just tell me it wasn’t love
I have no courage to say that
Give me my last gift
So I can’t ever go back to you
I need you girl
Why am I in love alone, why am I hurting alone
I need you girl
Why do I keep needing you when I know I’ll get hurt?
I need you girl, you’re beautiful
I need you girl, you’re so cold
I need you girl I need you girl
I need you girl I need you girl


A perfect song for me
Who being dumped without a word
I know that I did wrong even I don't really know the real thing
I did ask for forgiveness
But still no reply
I know this is not the first time for us
But this time is different
She can really left me since I have nothing to give to her
She has her forever best of the best partner
She already has someone who really understand her
Give her full support
Care and love her to the max

Sounds like I'm totally mentally breakdown right?
Yeah.. for this part.. at least..
Since I'm a 'friendshiphile' so.. it kinda a curse to me
She had done a lot to me
Johor - Penang is not that far for her
We share lots of memories & stories
Talk for hours through phone
even on Hari Raya sometimes
but yeah..
It's about destiny right..
So days after days waiting for my texts to be replied
Waiting for selamat hari raya wishes
I should not wait anymore I think
There's nothing left between us maybe
So I told Aishah the conclusion about this matter

"No matter how deep the mutual feeling, sampai masa Allah nak uji, hilang habis kemanisan tu. So, tak payah berharap dekat manusia. Berharap dekat Allah."

May Allah bless you Allah always, sahabat.