..::Akhirul kalam 2016 ::..

Dari Abu Al Abbas Abdullah bin Abbas radhiallahu ‘anhuma, beliau berkata : Suatu saat aku berada di belakang Nabi sallallahu ‘alaihi wa sallam, maka baginda bersabda : Wahai budak, aku akan mengajarkan kepadamu beberapa perkara: Jagalah Allah, nescaya Dia akan menjagamu, Jagalah Allah nescaya Dia akan selalu berada di hadapanmu. Jika kamu meminta, mintalah kepada Allah, jika kamu memohon pertolongan, mohonlah pertolongan kepada Allah. Ketahuilah sesungguhnya jika sebuah umat berkumpul untuk mendatangkan manfaat kepadamu sesuatu, mereka tidak akan dapat memberikan manfaat sedikitpun kecuali apa yang telah Allah tetapkan bagimu, dan jika mereka berkumpul untuk mencelakakanmu dengan sesuatu, nescaya mereka tidak akan mencelakakanmu kecuali kecelakaan yang telah Allah tetapkan bagimu. Pena telah diangkat dan lembaran telah kering. (Riwayat Tirmizi dan dia berkata : Hadisnya hasan sahih).

Menyingkap tirai hati

Mengintai keampunan

Di halaman subur rahmat-Mu, Tuhan

Tiap jejak nan bertapak

Debu kejahilan

Akan ku jirus dengan madu keimanan

Tak ternilai airmata dengan permata

Yang bisa memadamkan api neraka

Andai benar mengalir dari nasuha nurani

Tak kan berpaling pada palsu duniawi

Destinasi cinta yang ku cari

Sebenarnya terlalu hampir

Hanya kabur kerana dosa di dalam hati

Telah ku redah daerah cinta

Yang lahir dari wadah yang alpa

Tiada tenang ku temui

Hanya kecewa menyelubungi

Ku gelintar segenap maya

Dambakan sebutir hakikat

Untuk ku semai menjadi sepohon makrifat

Moga dapat ku berteduh di rendang kasih-Mu

Namun ranjaunya tidak akan sunyi

Selagi denyut nadi belum berhenti

Durjana syaitan kan cuba menodai

Segumpal darah bernama hati

(Destinasi cinta Ilahi)

Lestarikan wadi kalbuku, oh Tuhanku

Leraikan aku dari pautan nafsu

Biarpun sukar bagiku melamar redha-Mu

Namun masihku mengharap ampunan-Mu

Wahai Tuhanku.. Ya Allah

..:: Life (2) ::..

Assalamualaikum wbt

Aku pernah up entry pasal life and aku paste screenshots dari insta someone's lovely wife dekat sini

Then harini, Allah takdirkan untuk aku paste screenshot dari insta that lovely wife's husband

Yesterday was her husband birthday.

And today is their first wedding anniversary..

InnaLillahhiwainna ilai hiraajiun

Al Fatihah to this great lady

Who always being so strong to fight her illness day by day

and never forget to cherish every moment in her life gratefully

I am very grateful to know such a strong, positive and lovely lady like her.

May Allah gathers them back in Jannah

May Allah bless

..:: Cinta ::..

Assalamualaikum & hye

Aku sepatutnya kena fokus writing thesis tapi tetiba gatal tangan sangat-sangat nak menulis dekat blog. Krisis diri betui. Well tajuk entry ni cinta. Aku just nak cakap la aku tengah dalam fasa kurang bermotivasi (please do pray for me, my fellow reader(s)..) Maybe aku dalam fasa kurang cinta dengan jalan yang aku pilih walau aku tau from the very beginning yang aku memang takkan boleh jatuh suka dekat jalan yang lain seperti aku jatuh suka dekat jalan ni.

Ni la susahnya jadi perempuan. Emo. Tetiba rasa tak terinspirasi, tak dak motivasi, spirited away bagai. Dan kalau aku jadikan cintakan study sebagai motivasi aku untuk terus berada di jalan ni memang dah lama aku blahhh. Haha.

Yup. Aku takdak passion tu. Kalau ada pun dia tak strong enough untuk aku keep on my spirit up high. That's why aku kena lalui fasa-fasa demotivated. *Sigh

Tapi yang peliknya aku keep on dreaming. Aku loyal dengan dream aku. Aku jelas dengan niat aku untuk berjaya. So.. I think that's the only thing yang buatkan aku keep on going no matter how hard it is. Niat aku. Bila buat sesuatu kerana Allah, you have to try the very best and be the best for the sake of Allah.

"Hang bukan pandai mana pun, bukan rajin mana pun, bukan bijaksana sini mana pun Mimie. Dengan kuasa Allah ja hang boleh sampai tahap ni di saat ni."

So aku nak dedicatekan lagu untuk diri sendiri. 

You maybe a lowly people right now, you have no job, no special talent, not a beautiful-stunning-gorgeous lady, come from a 'nobody' family but please keep on fighting. Fighting to meet your dream girl, you yourself with those unlocked achievements, insyaAllah, biiznIllah.

The wind which swings your hair,
also the color of the moving clouds in the sky which I looked up
softly overflowed.

I’m gently holding the miracle that I could meet you,
Because I want to protect your tiny smile 

In this world started to move with this wind,
You’re standing silently and brightly like an angel 

I’m gently holding the miracle that I could meet you,
and also the painful emotion which is beyond expression in words


I’m gently holding the miracle that I could meet you,
Because I want to protect your dream


I’m gently holding the miracle that I could meet you, 
But still I’ve remained unable to tell you this painful emotion 


I’m gently holding the miracle that I could meet you,
I never intend to let this certain warmth go.

..:: Hakikatnya ::..

Assalamualaikum & hye

Minggu lepas-lepas FB friends aku up artikel ni

And rata-rata yang paham akan setuju bahawasanya

zaman postgrad ni memang zaman yang 'sunyi'

Kalau master (fully reasearch mode) pun dah sunyi membunuh

apatah lagi PhD kan

Kalau orang tanya sunyi tu sunyi yang macam mana bagi aku personally

Aku harap sangat nak buat research in group, secara berjemaah

Jenih cepat lonely memang lagutu haha

Memang kita ada kawan, labmates semua 

Tapi semua tengah strive and struggle in our own battles

Dan hakikatnya, macam tu lah hidup dekat dunia ni

Kita ada family, best buddies etc

Tapi end up masuk liang lahad dan jawab sendiri segala soalan malaikat

We strive for our own battle tapi tu pun selalu leka lagi

So bila aku lalui hari-hari yang susah

Aku akan ingat bahawasanya

Inilah hakikat hidup di dunia ni

Perlu susah supaya tak jadi tuhan

Supaya ingat Tuhan

Supaya ingat hidup ni tak lama dan akhirat yang kekal abadi

Himnaeseyo mimie

Tahniah after 20 years of studying, finally last week hidung berdarah

*sengih amazed hidung berdarah macam drama Korea

..:: IL 8.0 ::..

The wind which swings your hair,

also the color of the moving clouds in the sky which I looked up
softly overflowed.

I’m gently holding the miracle that I could meet you,
Because I want to protect your tiny smile


In this world started to move with this wind,
You’re standing silently and brightly like an angel 


I’m gently holding the miracle that I could meet you,
and also the painful emotion which is beyond expression in words


I’m gently holding the miracle that I could meet you,
Because I want to protect your dream


I’m gently holding the miracle that I could meet you, 
But still I’ve remained unable to tell you this painful emotion 


I’m gently holding the miracle that I could meet you,
I never intend to let this certain warmth go.

Love of My Life kedengaran sayup-sayup dari hujung koridor. Afsheen menghentikan langkah kakinya. 

"Lagu tu again, Nuha?" 

Afsheen menggelengkan kepala. Budak Nuha ni memang begitu perangainya. Asal tinggal seorang diri dalam bilik asrama mulalah bermacam lagu dan irama berkumandang dari bilik mereka. Nasib dia buat perangai separa tak senonoh macam tu waktu jiran-jiran satu wing balik bercuti ja.

Afsheen membuka pintu seraya memberi salam. Nuha terus merendahkan volume speaker.

"Sorry Afsheen. Aku.. lepas gian dengaq lagu kuat-kuat."

Senyuman tersungging di bibir Nuha.

Afsheen meletakkan beg di meja dan menarik kerusinya ke sebelah kerusi Nuha. Dia memegang bahu Nuha perlahan-lahan dan berkata..

"I know this act is kinda creepy but if you want to spill something, I am here.. Tell me."

Nuha tersenyum nipis.

"Aku ok ja.. Just terkenang masa silam and rasa loser?"

"Why so sudden Nuha?"

"Today my ex crush kahwin. So officially both of my ex crushes got married. I already move on and have nothing left for them tapi.. duhhhhh.. Aku rasa aku loser. Haha."

"Loser sebab?"

"Yala.. It was a mistake kot."

"Are you sure?"

"Yala.. Buang masa, tenaga, perasaan bagai. Tak ka?"

"Well kalau hang kira macam tu maybe ya. Tapi tak ka bila once hang dah rasa benda macam tu buatkan you yourself grow up and learn from the experience?"

"Hmm.. Maybe.."

"Naa.. Orang yang pernah jatuh dan bangun balik takkan pernah sama dengan orang yang berjalan ja tak pernah-pernah jatuh."

"Tapi dah pernah jatuh kot. Calar balar habis lutut kena sagat bumi."

"Alaa.. Kira okay la tu. So that hang dah tak manja and jadi lagi kuat dari sebelumnya. Kental."

"Hahaha. Okay. Kentallah sangat."

"You are stronger than you know. Sebab tu Allah uji babe."

Nuha tersenyum.

..:: Egomaniac ::..

Aku paling benci dengan spesis yang pentingkan diri tahap tak ingat ni. 

Contoh situasi;

1. Time susah in a relationship. Susah senang kena harungi bersama. Tapi bila terjadi situasi dua-dua dalam kesusahan, kenala consider the other person tu punya difficulties jugak. Ni tak, say bye-bye since nak fokus perjuangan sendiri.

2. Mutualism. If the other person can't give any benefit to you anymore then, maassalamah.

Yang syoknya after a period of time, spesis ni mula la cari balik orang yang depa tinggalkan dulu kala disebabkan ego tu.

Semoga Allah lindungi aku dari sifat keji tu.

Dan semoga aku jauh dari orang-orang yang bersifat macam tu.

..:: This song is for you ::..

Have you put me into your two eyes that sparkle at sunset?

Will that white hand of yours that made my heart flutter catch me again?

You’re the one who made me shine as I was walking through the pitch-black night

I’ll make more efforts

I’ll try to do better

I won’t let go of the hope you gave me

I will find the sky we drew together, the world we’ll walk in together 

Would you watch over me a bit more?

It’s all for you

My dream that started with you, 

will I reach your hand if I go until the end?

You’re the one who always gave me strength

You’re the one who has always been with me

I’ll make more efforts

I’ll try to do better

I won’t forget the hope you gave me

You who believed in me, I’ll go back to the moments we created together

Would you wait for me a little bit more?

You’ve always made me shine, ever since the beginning you were my star

I will repay you for giving me your heart unsparingly and for walking with me

I’ll make more efforts

I’ll try to do better

I won’t let go of the hope you gave me

I will find the sky we drew together, the world we’ll walk together in

Would you watch over me a bit more?

It’s all for you

I’m starting over in order to stand and be by your side

I won’t rush I won’t let go of you

I will make sure to approach you little by little

Rezeki memang dari Allah

but I'm glad Allah grant it for me through you

You will never know how much I'm grateful for your existence

May Allah bless

..:: OLD ::..

Well I have 4 other '91 liner cousins

3 boys and 2 girls (including me)

One of them is married and has a kid already

the girl one is just married

another 2 boys are currently in a serious relationship

(tunggu masa ja nak nikah)

and finally, me

Only Allah knows what's going on with my life

Seriously..

Sambil busy-busy tu aku lari balik kampung jugak sat

sebab nak tunaikan hak kepada saudara iaitu hadiri kenduri kawen

So tadi sebelum pi kenuri aku snap gamaq dengan anak-anak menakan aku

I look like a mother of three

Like seriously cepat gila masa berlalu aku dah 25 tahun 1 bulan 10 hari

Aku rasa macam baru ja excited tunggu sepupu balik kampung time raya

Celik-celik mata ja main sampai pejam mata balik

Tetengok semua dah pakat-pakat kerja

Dah nak kawen

Dah settle kawen

And dah ada anak pun

Hmm