..::Boy meets WHAT::..

Assalamualaikum & hye

Tittle tu actually one of those hints dropped by BTS in their live performance. BTS tak pernah failed bagi hint untuk next album concept/theme setakat aku follow. Aku memang baca ja all those theories written by ARMYs around the world. Memang ada yang betul pun untuk previous era WINGS, HYYH (The Most Beautiful Moment in Life) etc. 

Antara hint yang aku nak share sini pasal lirik lagu Outro dalam mini album Love Yourself: Her

All of my wonder

You're the answer

I call you her, her

Cuz you're my tear, tear

Lepas tu masa intro perfomance MMA haritu. Aku seriously mesmerized by their perfomance. Time intro tu pulak depa drop hints yang buatkan aku pun tumpang sekaki nak figure out kebenda yang depa bakal nak sampaikan nanti.

So time great dancers tengah perform, ada suara latar sampaikan these lines

WONDER, EUPHORIA
HER SERENDIPITY, LOVE seemed to be in DNA.

However in the end, it turns out to be FAKE LOVE.

TEAR, SINGULARITY

ANSWER, EPIPHANY

LOVE YOURSELF

Then aku baca theories, again. So untuk BTS LOVE YOURSELF theory, ARMYs sum up kata BTS akan keluarkan 4 mini album untuk this era. Tapi, 1st mini album start dengan HER which lagu intro dia Serendipity. Sebab tu word HER saja yang ada sentence maybe? Those 4 mini albums and intro songs are listed as below

WONDER - EUPHORIA

HER - SERENDIPITY
TEAR - SINGULARITY

ANSWER - EPIPHANY

According to the theories, basically Love Yourself ni nak cerita pasal budak laki yang jatuh cinta dan patah hati. Ending dia should be budak laki tu move on and sayangi diri dia.

So apahal aku over sangat menulis pasal ni untuk entri sulung tahun ni? Well it's because once again BTS saying out loud what's in my heart. If WINGS surprisingly relatable dengan kisah hidup aku time pursuing master (remember Blood, Sweat and Tears?), LOVE YOURSELF is 100% relatable dengan hidup aku starting the year 2018.

So for me, its Girl meets WHAT. Her tu tukaq dengan Him. I know right.. What a plot twist. Haha.

But I have to make it clear that, this got nothing to do with any ajnabi in the world. Ingat laki yang bukan satu bloodline dengan kita saja yang boleh hancur kecaikan hati perempuan? Of course not. People might say that the pain is different but the pain is still the pain. In fact, the pain cause by the one that related by blood is much more painful sometimes. Because of the unquestionable trust that we put in since forever.

I'm always questioning about his mysteriousness since forever. I love him no matter what since I know how to name the feeling. But he ended up break my heart to the pieces by doing that thing over and over again without thinking of other people who love him unconditionally.

Yes Aishah, it's about the thing that can't be told. It's about the LIE. The lie that he thought I will never know this sooner.

Tell me
With your sweet smile
Tell me
Tell me like you’re whispering into my ears
Don’t be like a prey
Be Smooth like a like a snake
I want to escape but

Get away away away from me
Get away away from me
Whatever it takes, save me, me
Save me

It keeps happening even though I run away
I’m caught in a lie

Caught in a lie
Find the me that was innocent
I can’t free myself from this lie
Give me back my laughter

Caught in a lie
Take me out of his hell
I can’t free myself from this pain
Save the me who’s being punished

Want me
The me who has lost the way
Want me
Like always, I

I feel so far away
You always come my way
I repeat again

Get away away away from me
Get away away from me
Ah woo woo
Whatever it takes, save me, me
Save me

It keeps happening even though I run away
I’m caught in a lie

Caught in a lie
Find the me that was innocent
I can’t free myself from this lie
Give me back my laughter

Caught in a lie
Take me out of his hell
I can’t free myself from this pain
Save the me who’s being punished

I’m still the same me
The me from before is still here but
The lie that’s gotten too big
Is trying to swallow me up

Caught in a lie
Find the me that was innocent
I can’t free myself from this lie
Give me back my laughter

Caught in a lie
Take me out of his hell
I can’t free myself from this pain
Save the me who’s being punished

PJM-LIE

So 2018's resolutions? 

#1 Love myself. Because only the one who truly love him/herself is possible to love other people unconditionally, appropriately and accurately.

#2 Never ever rely on people. To Allah alone, I rely.

#3 Always remember that Allah love me. 

"And We will surely test you with something of fear and hunger and a loss of wealth and lives and fruits, but give good tidings to the patient. Who, when disaster strikes them, say, "Indeed we belong to Allah , and indeed to Him we will return."Those are the ones upon whom are blessings from their Lord and mercy. And it is those who are the [rightly] guided.[Al-Qur'an 2:155-157]

"Or you think that you will enter Paradise without such (trials) as came to those who passed away before you? They were afflicted with severe poverty, ailments and were so shaken that even the Messenger and those who had faith with him said, 'When will the Help of Allah come?' Yes! Indeed Allah's help is close!" [Al-Qur'an 2:214]

[He] who created death and life to test you [as to] which of you is best in deed - and He is the Exalted in Might, the Forgiving  [Al-Qur'an 67:2]

May Allah guide, help and protect me always

May Allah bless