..:: The Throwback ::..

Bismillah..

This entry was inspired by  Sir Zul's (my science & bio teacher) fb post and also Matluthfi's hari jubah video

It has been 23 years old

I am here where I am now

Feeling blessed, AlhamduLillah

Still striving for the blessings, insyaAllah, biiznillah

Tadika

I was a student of my primary school's pre school

Wearing the non-covering aurah attire of course

Well I was registered as a student a bit late than others

So, as a 'freshie' I don't have many friends

Primary School

My mak bought me a tudung to completed my school's attire

And the tudung material is kinda light lycra

As far as I concern, I am the only one who wore that kind of tudung

I still remember I bought a small plate of nasi sambal ikan bilis for 20cent

And a cup of cordial drink for 10cent

*incredibly cheap isn't it?"

I am not a good reader (read plenty of books, digest and remember them every words)

but I do love books and love to be around the books

So the library was my favourite place in the school

I became the librarian since I was in standard 3 till standard 6

Secondary School

Most of my hardest times happened there

First time experiencing the hostel life was really torn me into the pieces

AlhamduLillah, Allah has lend me a good clan of buddies there

Who made me feel like I was not invisible

As a student who was not so bright and excellent, no sport's ability, can't marching very well

Introvert, yes I am

However, the peak of jahiliyyah still happened there

*Avril was once my best friend. I listened to her day and night*

I know the purpose of life

But sadly, I didn't treasure it to the fullest

Astaghfirullahhalazhim

PLKN

Still be friend with the lady Lavigne and her clan

And others kpop, jpop and hindustan

Plkn was like a summer camp for me

They teach us to be independent and others

And I teach my self to be a good reader

J.K Rowling, Stephenie Meyer and others help me a lot

*sigh*

But, if I can go back to that time,

I will change my self to be a competent slave

Who will never do something that obviously doesn't pleased Allah

Astaghfirullahhalazhim

Matriculation

KMK, the land of tarbiyyah for me

AlhamduLillah for everything happened there

I meet my usrah

I meet Aishah

I started my baby step to be a contented and competent slave there

I was taught to leave everything that leading us to the sin

It was more than just saying good bye to Avril Lavigne and Big Bang

And of course the 'conscious state' was so unbearable

Feeling like you were killing your own soul with ignorance before

There were so many eye tearing moments and I am very grateful for that

*May Allah hold my self tightly*

Uni

I may not be the same as before

But believe me, I am the old me in a few matters

Still introvert, I am

Still homesick & 'friendsick'

But on top of everything

If somebody ask me what have you got from uni other than the academic scroll

I will gratefully say,

"AlhamduLillah, I am so grateful to be a daughter of pesawah and a caretaker who live in a small house in a village full of paddy field, who was raised with love and care, and now I am a slave of Allah, who will strive the best for His blessings, be a good ansorullah and jundullah and fighting to the fullest to make Islam on top of everything and nothing beyond that. May Allah grant me syahid fisabilillah. Ameen. InsyaAllah, biiznillah."

This world is the biggest classroom, Allah is the teacher

Learn whatever that brings you back to Allah

And you will never lost anything 

Instead, you will found everything

InsyaAllah

SubhanAllah AlhamduLillah Allahhuakbar

Regard,

A slave of Allah