..:: If only you saw what I can see ::..

Be Yourself (Kun Anta ; English Translation)

In order to keep up with them, I imitated their looks and exterior

So I became someone else – just to boast

And I thought that through that I’d gained a fortune

But I found that I’d lost, for these are mere appearances

Chorus:

No, no,

We don’t need wealth to increase in beauty

Our essence is here, in our hearts it shines

No, no

We will not seek to please others with that which we deem unbefitting for ourselves

That is our beauty, rising and ascending above

Oh wo oh, oh wo oh..

Be yourself and you will increase in beauty

I accept people but I don’t imitate them

Except for what I agree with, to satisfy myself

I will just be myself, just the way I am, this is me

My conviction suffices, this is my certainty

(Chorus)

I’ll be what I please to be

I won’t seek their acceptance

I’ll be whom I love to be

Why would I care about their acceptance

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What Makes You Beautiful

You're insecure

Don't know what for

You're turning heads when you walk through the door

Don't need make up

To cover up

Being the way that you are is enough

Everyone else in the room can see it

Everyone else but you

[Chorus]

Baby you light up my world like nobody else

The way that you flip your hair gets me overwhelmed

But when you smile at the ground it aint hard to tell

You don't know

Oh Oh

You don't know you're beautiful

If only you saw what I can see

You'll understand why I want you so desperately

Right now I'm looking at you and I can't believe

You don't know

Oh oh

You don't know you're beautiful

Oh oh

That what makes you beautiful

So c-come on

You got it wrong

To prove I'm right I put it in a song

I don't know why

You're being shy

And turn away when I look into your eyes

Everyone else in the room can see it

Everyone else but you

[Chorus]

Baby you light up my world like nobody else

The way that you flip your hair gets me overwhelmed

But when you smile at the ground it aint hard to tell

You don't know

Oh oh

You don't know you're beautiful

If only you saw what I can see

You'll understand why I want you so desperately

Right now I'm looking at you and I can't believe

You don't know

Oh oh

You don't know you're beautiful

Oh oh

That's what makes you beautiful

Baby you light up my world like nobody else

The way that you flip your hair gets me overwhelmed

But when you smile at the ground it aint hard to tell

You don't know

Oh Oh

You don't know you're beautiful

[Chorus]

Baby you light up my world like nobody else

The way that you flip your hair gets me overwhelmed

But when you smile at the ground it aint hard to tell

You don't know

Oh oh

You don't know you're beautiful

If only you saw what I can see

You'll understand why I want you so desperately

Right now I'm looking at you and I can't believe

You don't know

Oh Oh

You don't know you're beautiful

Oh oh

You don't know you're beautiful

Oh oh

That's what makes you beautiful

Nothing much to elaborate.

Just wanna say, I think these two songs

bring almost the same messages.

I know most of the people will object my opinion.

Including my kak naqibah who loves Kun Anta very much.

Haha.

But who cares?

That's my opinion.

:D

..:: Tenggelamnya Kapal Van Der Wijck & Aku ::..

    Kisahnya bermula sewaktu aku masih belajar di bangku matrikulasi. Sahabat dunia akhiratku, Aishah yang baik hati lagi setia dan mampu menerima aku seadanya asyik mengesyorkan buku-buku Faisal Tehrani kepada ku. Ya, kami tahu kontroversi yang melanda penulis tersebut tetapi karyanya yang lama-lama alhamduLillah masih tidak mampu mematahkan pegangan kami. 

   Aku pun terus membaca coretan-coretan Faisal Tehrani walaupun kebanyakan dari isinya tidak ku fahami. Sehinggalah suatu ketika, aku terbaca mengenai novel Tenggelamnya Kapal Van Der Wijck karya Buya HAMKA di dalam salah sebuah karya Faisal Tehrani. Pernah aku 'google' mengenai novel tersebut tetapi hampa. Tiada fail yang berformatkan pdf (tidak berbayar) yang ku jumpa. Keinginan ku untuk membaca karya tersebut juga tenggelam dek peredaran masa dan waktu. 

  Sehinggalah pada kira-kira bulan Oktober 2014, sewaktu aku dalam fasa menyesuaikan diri dengan kehidupan master (the beginning is always the hardest), masih belum bergraduasi, aku meluangkan masa dengan membaca bacaan yang tidak membina. Bosan membaca, aku melayari internet dan menonton movie-movie. Aku menonton semula movie-movie dari Indonesia. Sehinggalah pada ketika aku usai menonton movie Di Bawah Lindungan Kaabah, aku terlihat trailer movie Tenggelamnya Kapal Van Der Wijck. Baru ku tahu, rupanya novel itu telah difilemkan lebih setahun yang lalu.

  Hidupku bagaikan bercahaya semula. Aku mempunyai misi baru walaupun tidak ku tahu bagaimana isi novel itu lagi. Aku pun ke makmal seperti biasa dan meluahkan rasa yang terbuku di sanubari kepada Fiqa, jiran meja sebelah. Ditakdirkan, emak Fiqa memiliki novel lama tersebut. Bagaikan bulan jatuh ke riba, bagaikan bintang dalam genggaman, aku pun dengan penuh kesyukuran memohon untuk meminjam novel tersebut.

  Setelah berminggu-minggu bersama novel tersebut (lambat baca sebab tak skip & gaya bahasa yang terlalu tinggi), tiba di penghujung novel, aku terjumpa link untuk menonton Tenggelamnya Kapal Van Der Wijck. Sejujurnya, diriku lebih menyukai cerita tersebut dalam bentuk novelnya atas beberapa faktor. Tetapi, aku lebih menyukai 'ending' cerita itu dalam bentuk filem.

Jazakillahhu khayran katheera emak Fiqa!
=)

InsyaAllah, ada rezeki aku juga mahu memiliki novel ini.

#Motif menulis secara tiba-tiba ; Ingin merasai perasaan menulis ketika kurang sihat. Penat dan emosi kurang stabil. Asyik nak terharu dengan kebaikan semua orang. 

#Moral of the story ; Syukuri nikmat sihat dengan syukur yang sebenar. Sakit itu penghapus dosa. Setelah sekian lama sihat, mohon bersabar dengan ujian sakit yang sedikit ini.

#Andai ini penulisan terakhirku, maafkanlah segala kesilapan yang pernah jasad ini lakukan dan hati ini rasakan.

..:: Moon ::..

Abah ada 'taste' anak perempuan kesukaan yang tersendiri
Abah suka gadis yang truly gadis
She must be adorable with the brain
Cantik itu subjektif
Tapi bagi abah, cantik akhlak dan halus pekerti tuan badannya,
maka cantiklah dia
Dia haruslah juga bijak mengawal dirinya agar tidak tergopoh gapah
dan clumsy
Sentiasa kemas, rajin mengemas, dan sentiasa kemas
Sopan santun dalam menutur kata-kata dan perbuatan

Somehow, aku bersyukur sebab aku jadi anak abah
bukannya bakal menantu
Then aku realise balik..
Ok, itu maknanya, aku tak berjaya menjadi anak gadis yang ideal untuk abah
So his love for me is soooo genuine~
Love unconditionally
=')

The moonlight is setting,
A black moon is setting in my heart
It resembles me, who can’t say anything
If I long for it so much and call out and call out
It’s a memory that became blackened ash

Tak semestinya diri yang lama itu kena tinggalkan forever,

Sometimes, part yang baik, kena ambil balik.

I never say, "Bring back the old Mimie."

Just, stay where you are and improve yourself.

To let go something that will leave a mark in your heart is uneasy, really.

Tapi kena jugak andai itu takdirNya!

Keep smiling gratefully

Cari hikmah dari setiap segi & inci

Live your life to the fullest

And, leave everything to Allah

Allah will fix everything insyaAllah

Last but not least, be strong!

You are the chosen one.

=)

Ustaz Bikai buat lawak spoil 

Hati selalunya kental dengan provokasi murahan

Tapi yang ni rasa tak boleh nak tahan

Allah yang jadikan kita dengan sebaik-baik kejadian kan?

Tiba-tiba rasa nak jadi invisible forever