..::When GCF makes me jealous::..

Assalamualaikum & hye

Harini birthday mak 

AlhamduLillah aku tak lupa macam tahun-tahun yang lalu

Even aku still rasa aku macam anak yang tak cukup berguna tapi at least aku tak lupa

Everything went well sampai la

JK drops GCF in Saipan on my mother's birthday 

Haritu yang USA punya on my best friend's birthday 

Last few months Osaka punya masa aku baru balik KL

OK. It's nothing serious yes

But that video never fails to make me jealous of him

He can do the thing that he wants

(I WANT TO RECORD THAT KIND OF FREAKING GOOD VIDEOS, REALLY!)

He managed to achieve his dream 

He is good in everything he did
And he just 21 y/o

While me myself, I'm still searching

and striving to achieve my goals 

I'm sorry mak abah 

For keep both of you waiting such a long time
I will strive harder insyaAllah 

..::Special Edition: The one and only::..

Assalamualaikum & hye

Hari tu aku balik dari KL time birthday hang

Sampai dah malam then aku takdak kudrat nak update blog on that day 

So takdakla entry special on your birthday 

But anyway, on that day JK release G. C. F in USA

Featuring all 7 members 

So aku rasa whaaatttt apahal release on my besties birthday macam special coincidence sangat

Aku rasa aku nak buat something 

Yang dah lama aku tak buat

But anyway aku bukan triggered by the GCF ka apa

Sebelum tu lagi dah pikiaq nak buat

Makanya terhasillah setelah beberapa hari aku berusaha 

That special edition thing, is the one and only edition exist in the world so please accept it

It is my sincerity 

My heart

I'm sorry I can't be as perfect, as good and as special as you expect me to 

But nway

Keep fighting bae

Happy Birthday 

May Allah bless you always 

Ameen

When you say that you love me
Feels like I’m walking across the sky
Tell me about forever, just one more time
When you say that you love me
I just need those words
That you’ll never change, just one more time

..::Auditory hallucination::..

There are so many hidden things inside of me

It made me change so much

It put me to sleep, it tied my hands and feet

It trapped me in a dark room

The pieces of lost time

The memories of love that I threw away

They have been deleted and thrown away

Only the outer shells remain

Without knowing anything, I just shouted

I just have that memory

My heart that was cold as ice

It will be forgotten after I sleep

I want to escape from this pain that chains me down

Someone wake me up

From my soul that is filled with scars

The deeply colored night sky

Is filled with you, who won’t leave

It wakes me from my sleep

Kissing me again

Your voice that whispered I love you

Your scent, I hear it in my ears every day

Where are you?

You’re hidden in a place where I can’t see you

The pain you received for me

When my anger becomes one

I’ll chase the lost memories from the deep sleep

I want to find the real me that is not you

But the bruises in my heart are too big

I try hiding it but they hide in my heart and wake me up

I met you on the other side of my horrible memories

You embraced even my lost feelings

Helping me get up from being broken

I’m trying not to let go of your hands

I’m trying to erase the nightmares

I’m trying so hard

In this place where I trapped myself

I want to roll up the darkness

And find you

Though I can’t touch you

Or be held by you

What controls me

Isn’t what lives in me

What can heal me isn’t strong medicine

It’s just love

The voice I hear in my ears

Wakes me up from being lost

After it wraps around me and kisses me

It disappears and I can’t see it anymore

The deeply colored night sky

Is filled with you, who won’t leave

It wakes me from my sleep

Kissing me again

Your voice that whispered I love you

Your scent, I hear it in my ears every day

Where are you?

In the night sky that I can’t touch

I see you turning back

Making me escape from the exhausted days

Making it into a picture

I’m sorry, I say as I hold onto you

Don’t go far away, I call out to you

In the sadness that I can’t ever see again

Tears fall again