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 Assalamualaikum & hyeeee

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Kahkahkah

Rasa terpanggil nak masuk blog sebab nak tunjuk harta karun yang dah bertahun tahun gue simpan 

Harta ni boleh jadi artifak peninggalan sejarah untuk gue mengenang kembali masa lalu bersama aishah

Aishah ni pesen suka menulis dari bercakap. Totally berlainan kutub dengan teman yang lagi suka bercakap dari menulis. So since teman ada blog suka benor la aishah tu mai singgah baca baca

Dia lagi suka baca benda teman tulis dekat blog dari cakap dengan teman. Ate teman bukan rajin beghiye nak menulihnye

Ok ok aku dah letih potpet so nah tengok ni 

Ok this kotak ada barang peninggalan hang ja

Taraaaaa 

Antara masterpiece hang

Ni point of view bila hang buka kotak tu 

Ni antara karangan hang dalam buku tu 

Ni wrap hadiah birthday aku yang ke 19

Apeni bleach19 bagai

Banyak lagi nak bongkarkan tapi tak manis pulak nak letak banyak banyak sini

Kang bakal mak mertua hang baca tak pasal dia suspicious, biar bethol budak aishah ni sayang bebenor dia ke budak mimie tu

*semoga bakal mak mertua hang tak jumpa blog aku*

Anyways thanks to limited internet coverage aku pun malaih nak tepek banyak banyak dah

Till we meet again (here) insyaAllah

fi hifzILLAH aishah

xoxo

..::Someday::..

"Abah minta maaf. I'm not a good father."

If I was stronger
I would've held onto you till the end

Even when I'm doing well, without much thought
The forgotten memories come back as a dilemma
Me with you and me without you
Are two entirely different people, just know that
All these illusions make the musty air thicker
First time first love it was really good for the first time
But it became a mess, as if we were at war
But some day

Some day, let's meet again on a better day
Let's be more happy, more cool
Like the ocean with waves
Let's meet again, I'll wait for us
Let's be more happy, more calm
Some day, under the heart fluttering sunlight

On the day I let you go
Because of my foolishness, I blamed you
I resented you and hated you
Because it hurt so much as if I was being ripped apart
I erased you now I know I can't turn things around now
I was a fool who didn't know – When I'm not the me
Of the young days – When I become stronger
If only I could hold your hand again, please

Some day, let's meet again on a better day
Let's be more happy, more cool
Like the ocean with waves
Let's meet again, I'll wait for us
Let's be more happy, more calm
Some day, under the heart fluttering sunlight

I'll be honest, I really regret it
I only had to say one thing, I'm sorry
I'll be honest, I admit it was my fault
Because of me, we split apart
Now I'll tell you, I'm truly sorry
I pray that we can see each other again
I pray for you every night and day
Hoping to see you face to face again someday

Some day, let's meet again on a better day
Let's be more happy, more cool
Like the ocean with waves
Let's meet again, I'll wait for us
Let's be more happy, more calm
Some day, under the heart fluttering sunlight

   

16072020

Assalamualaikum & hye

Long time no see you here, I know

Sorry sebab lama gila tunggu aku update sini

Kalau dulu-dulu aku selalu update exactly on your birthday

Tapi tahun ni tersasar

I miss us

Ok fine memang la baru meet up

But I really miss us

And reading old post makes me miss us even more

Cepatnya masa berlalu hang dah 29 tahun

Rasa macam baru semalam hang potpet dekat aku

Pakai stokin kaki tu pun aurat

Ajak aku betulkan niat

Kita berkawan bukan sebab sama-sama layan Big Bang Suju

Tapi sebab nak bersahabat lagi dekat syurga

Semuanya Lillahhi taala

I really miss us

Aku terjumpa notes ni

Banyak dah yang terdelete tapi yang ni

Aku tak sure la aku memang jenis setia ka apa

Tapi rasa macam baru tulis semalam ja

In the end, it's always you

Thank you Aishah

Thank you for everything

Thank you for the memories

May Allah grant Siti Aishah bt Mhd Marzuki

a blessed, blissful and successful life in this world

and hereafter. Ameen

Let's be best friend till Jannah

May Allah bless

..::Teh::..

       

Assalamualaikum & hye

Lama tak update blog since blogger & reader 

istiqomah jumpa seminggu sekali or paling lama 2 minggu sekali

And dah lama tak update blog pasai kucing

The last time is when I was doing my degree

If I'm not mistaken 

And tu pun pasai yang sama

Kucing mati 

I'm not a true cat lover seriously

Tak macam adik @ abah aku

Aku tak suka taik kucing 

Cuci taik kucing lagi tak suka 

Aku tak suka jugak kucing yang suka gigit kaki

So I can't love cat unconditionally 

Tapi aku sayang ja dekat kucing yang dah bertaubat dari buat perangai camtu 

Time berak tak cari aku

Tak gigit or cakaq aku

Macam Teh 

He was so small before 

That perut boyot is bae

Kantoi tidoq atas buku 

Pastu buat muka tak bersalah 

Kadang tu agak tak ketahuan 

Kakak pun nampak macam abang

AlhamduLillah for the joy that you bring to my family 

Nasib la abah & adik aku sayang hang or else

Hang memang kena tidoq dalam stor

I know I can't control my feelings 

Dah berapa ramai kucing kesayangan family mati

Dan setiap kali tu aku berjanji tak mau sayang kucing dah

I kept reminding myself to be good to animals

That's it 

But Allah knows best 

He keeps sending us new cats 

And I fall in love over again 

But 

I really want to meet you again insyaAllah 

May Allah gather us again in Jannah 

Ameen

Annyeong Teh 

Thanks for the memories 

I'm sorry for not being good enough to you

Much love, 

Kak

..::Photograph::..

The truth is, I do love all my friends. But I do love this fella more. She has special place in my heart after 10 years of laugh, tears, dramas and stuff. 

O Allah, take care of her. Bless her always. Please gather us again in Jannah. 

Ameenn 

Loving can hurt, loving can hurt sometimes

But it's the only thing that I know

When it gets hard, you know it can get hard sometimes

It is the only thing makes us feel alive

We keep this love in a photograph

We made these memories for ourselves

Where our eyes are never closing

Hearts are never broken

And time's forever frozen still

So you can keep me

Inside the pocket of your ripped jeans

Holding me closer 'til our eyes meet

You won't ever be alone, wait for me to come home

Loving can heal, loving can mend your soul

And it's the only thing that I know, know

I swear it will get easier

Remember that with every piece of you

Hm, and it's the only thing we take with us when we die

Hm, we keep this love in this photograph

We made these memories for ourselves

Where our eyes are never closing

Hearts were never broken

And time's forever frozen still

So you can keep me

Inside the pocket of your ripped jeans

Holding me closer 'til our eyes meet

You won't ever be alone

And if you hurt me

That's okay baby, only words bleed

Inside these pages you just hold me

And I won't ever let you go

Wait for me to come home

Wait for me to come home

Wait for me to come home

Wait for me to come home

Oh, you can fit me

Inside the necklace you got when you were sixteen

Next to your heartbeat where I should be

Keep it deep within your soul

And if you hurt me

Well, that's okay baby, only words bleed

Inside these pages you just hold me

And I won't ever let you go

When I'm away, I will remember how you kissed me

Under the lamppost back on Sixth street

Hearing you whisper through the phone

"Wait for me to come home"

..::Happy Holiday::..

I know that you're tired sometimes 

So I give you some space without me

everytime you are away with your friends 

Enjoy your holiday 

💕

Happy Birthday to a living soul, 

who become the main reason 

of this blog's existence

~Cause you are the reason.. ~

May Allah grant you a blessed, blissful 

and successful life in this world and hereafter. 

Ameenn

Thank you for these 10 years

I'm sorry for being me

Let's grow up and old gracefully together, love

Saranghae ❤

..::🌷::..

Don’t think of anything
Don’t say anything, not even a word
Just give me a smile

I still can’t believe it
All of this seems like a dream
Don’t try to disappear

Is it true Is it true
You You
You’re so beautiful, that I’m scared
Untrue Untrue
You You You

Will you stay by my side
Will you promise me
If I let go of your hand, you’ll fly away and break
I’m scared scared scared of that

Will you stop time
If this moment passes
As though it hadn’t happened
I’m scared scared scared I’ll lose you

Butterfly like a Butterfly
Just like a Butterfly bu butterfly
Butterfly like a butterfly
Just like a Butterfly bu butterfly

You’re just like a Butterfly
From afar, I steal glances; if we touch hands, will I lose you?
You shine in this pitch darkness that is the butterfly effect
Your light touches, I forget the reality at once

It’s like a wind that gently strokes me
It’s like a dust that gently drifts along
You’re there but for some reason, I can’t reach you, stop
You, who’s like a dream is a butterfly high to me

Untrue Untrue
You You You

Will you stay by my side
Will you promise me
If I let go of your hand, you’ll fly away and break
I’m scared scared scared of that

Will you stop time
If this moment passes
As though it hadn’t happened
I’m scared scared scared I’ll lose you

The small pieces guttered down darkly
From my heart, a barren noise
I don’t know if this is reality or a dream
My Kafka on the seaside
Don’t go to those woods over there
My heart is still shattering on you
(I just wanted to vaporize like this)
My love that is forever
It’s all FREE for you baby

Will you stay by my side
Will you promise me
If I let go of your hand, you’ll fly away and break
I’m scared scared scared of that

Will you stop time
If this moment passes
As though it hadn’t happened
I’m scared scared scared I’ll lose you

Butterfly like a Butterfly
Just like a Butterfly bu butterfly
Butterfly like a butterfly
Just like a Butterfly bu butterfly

Let's grow old together, Aishah 

🌷

..::May Allah bless you always::..

Thank you for all these years

For your love and concern  

For enduring my texts 'harassment'

For always being there in our universe

[To spare your precious time] 

[To read every single word]

[To understand every single feeling]

[To share your pieces of life]

Just because we can't sit together like them

To rant about our life

May Allah grant Siti Aishah bt Mhd Marzuki a blessed, blissful and successful life in this world and hereafter. 

May Allah grant her and her beloved ones Jannatul Firdaus. 

Ameenn

:)

Assalamualaikum & hye

Ramadan Kareem 

AlhamduLillah dah seminggu berpuasa.

And I finally realized that syaitonirrojim already succeeded in planting the seed of jealousy in my heart 

It has been 10 months 

we didn't see each other

Yeah I texted you almost everyday 

But still 

Hmm

Have fun with your life

Don't be sad 

Don't be lonely 

Don't worry about me

I can handle it 

..::TxT::..

Assalamualaikum & hye

Lama aku tak berletiaq dekat sini. Makanya, izinkan hamba memberi sepatah dua tiga patploh kata. So few days back B!gh!t release debut song untuk new boy group company depa. Fuyyoo bee tee es dah ada juniorrrr. Aku bukan nak cakap pasai konsep or lagu or perangai budak 5 orang tu. Aku nak cakap pasai kesetiaan. Aceewaahh

Aku tau kewujudan bi ti es masa depa tahun ketiga dalam industri. Kira masa tu nama depa dah naik. Tapi still aku tak pernah layan depa. Sampaila tetiba depa menang daesang. Weh seriously mana ada artis dari company kecik pernah menang grand prize award. Still masa tu aku tak tengok depa lagi. 1^st encounter aku dengan depa masa tengok footage Jin(manusia, bukan jin) makan. Tupun bukan dengan semua member. Then tengok saeguk drama ada V. Pastu kawan aku tunjuk mv Fire. Aku still tak rasa tertarik sebab mv tu tak tunjuk sangat choreography depa. Well time tu aku adalah conservative kpopper. Wakaka. Aku layan group yang nyanyi lagu bergenre dance pop yang catchy. Tak layan hip hop sangat other than BigBang. Dan aku setia dengan group bias aku yang jugak dari smol company tapi berjaya thrive and survive dalam arena industri muzik Korea yang sangat laju berkembang pesat.

I was a big fan of !nfinite at that moment and still I am. Depa ni kira memang champion la untuk group yang mai dari smol company. They really work hard on vocals and choreography. Bayangkan sambil menari teruk-teruk dengan choreo bapak cool still boleh nyanyi dengan sedap tanpa tercungap. Macam group idol yang lain, depa pun ada main vocalist, main dancer, main rapper and visual. Yang bestnya depa ni semua boleh nyanyi as vocalist even a rapper. Choreo depa best and dance depa sharp gila. And paling penting, dicelah lautan manusia buat plastic surgery, depa tak buat. Seriously. Sebab depa natural la boleh tengok company depa jenih utamakan talent dari visual. Tapi, I have to write this dah alang-alang aku berletiaq ni, visual depa seriously handsome. Annyeong other handsome and beautiful with plastic surgery creatures *lambai tangan*.

Ok dah kot aku tak larat nak taip dah hujah yang menyatakan aku big fan group yang macam mana time tu. So then macam aku pernah tulis dulu, I was hooked to bi ti es lepas tertengok mv Not Today. Well perfect time pun BH drop the mv. Time tula aku rasa aku jumpa artis yang betoi-betoi work hard, give the best performance WITH meaningful message. Baru aku gali lagu-lagu lama depa. Baru aku tengok balik Fire choreography mv. Wehhhh lit gila choreo depa. Lagu tu seriously sesuai nyanyi after jumpa pakcik makcik abang adik bawang. Lagu Spring Day tu seriously relatable dengan long distance friendship OMGGG. Aku start baca macam-macam then aku jumpa masterpiece depa ni berangkai. Setiap era ada cerita dia. Semua tu relatable dengan budak baru nak up and those who suffering, striving, thriving and surviving.

Satu ja aku nak cakap.

I was late knowing them.

Well aku paham, kira ok la jumpa lambat. Jumpa awai satgi melagha tak cukup tanah pulak. Tapi seriously shout out to predebut A.R.M.Ys out there who were always been there for them, believe in them since forever till now, you guys are daebak. Aku tau bukan depa ja yang lambat gila dapat recognition dekat carta muzik. !nfinite pun lambat. Tapi tak selambat depa la. 2 tahun debut kot baru menang 1^st place dekat carta. Tapi dah pernah dapat award Best Rookie Group. Tak ka tergantung perasaan tu? Feeling dia macam hang dah lulus viva tapi tak dapat degree scroll lagi. Acewah. Dah tu kena tuduh kena kecam macam-macam sebab orang tak suka, orang tak percaya. Fan pun sikit. Orang pun ramai tak kenai. Underrate tahap buku lali. Atas ja sikit dari tapak kaki. Tapi depa teruskan jugak. Lepaih berkali-kali menang dekat carta then akhirnya the golden moment has arrived. They had win their 1^st daesang yeahhhh.

Ni bukan pertama kali aku tengok new rookie group dari zaman predebut. Tapi aku terpikiaq nak potpet pasai depa ni sebab depa hoobae bi ti es. Pasaipa bi ti es selalu mention A.R.M.Ys dalam award ceremony speech and dalam concert depa? Sebab depa nak menghargai orang yang setia dengan depa. Lagi lama hang setia dengan depa, lagi hang akan rasa terharu dengan speech depa seriously. Sebab depa ditarbiyah oleh BH dengan jayanya untuk sampaikan mesej kemanusiaan dalam masterpiece depa. BH mesti selalu remind depa, company & family (parents terutamanya) memang orang yang banyak berjasa dengan kejayaan depa. Tapi its their loyal fans actually the main factor depa boleh berjaya dengan jayanya. Tengok macam mana fandom promote, buat events, initiate votes for voting award etc. Depa buat kerja free kot. Siap habiskan duit sendiri lagi. Bukan setakat buat kerja amal, they even love them unconditionally. Ok of course la dengan syarat depa tu depa ada talent menyanyi menari buat lagu. Still they really cherish those talents wholeheartedly, give as many thing as they can and be with them now and then. Mana nak cari orang setia macam tu?

Susah nak cari orang yang setia dengan hang masa hang susah, tak dak apa-apa, tak berguna, tak dak nilai, tapi still percaya dengan hang and give the best untuk ang. Seriously.

Been trying to tell you this

I was supposed to tell you this

This is all for you

Let’s only walk on flower paths

I can’t say that

Let’s only see good things

I can’t say that

Only good things will happen now

It won’t hurt anymore

I can’t say those things

I can’t say those lies

You’re idols so I don’t have to listen to you to know you suck

I don’t like your lyrics, it’s obvious

You have no power

So you probably did something fishy

Seeing what you’ve done, I know you’re gonna fail

(Thank you so much) because of your own inferiority complex

You proved that you’re worse

Than you were in high school

Clap clap, keep it up

We’re gonna be happy on our own, good yeah I’m good

It’s alright, now count 1, 2, 3 and forget

Erase all sad memories

Hold my hand and smile

It’s alright, now count 1, 2, 3 and forget

Erase all sad memories

Hold each others hands and smile

Still, I hope there will be good days

If you believe me, 1, 2, 3

If you believe me, 1, 2, 3

Still, I hope there are way more good days

If you believe me, 1, 2, 3

If you believe me, 1, 2, 3

1, 2, 3

Then everything will change

For better days

Because we’re together

Behind the stage, I’m in the shadow, I’m in the darkness

I didn’t want to show you my pain

But I still lack so much

I only wanted to make you smile

I wanted to be good

(So thanks) for believing in me

For handling these tears and scars

(So thanks) for being my light

For being a flower in the most beautiful moment of life

It’s alright, now count 1, 2, 3 and forget

Erase all sad memories

Hold my hand and smile

It’s alright, now count 1, 2, 3 and forget

Erase all sad memories

Hold each others hands and smile

Still, I hope there will be good days

If you believe me, 1, 2, 3

If you believe me, 1, 2, 3

Still, I hope there are way more good days

If you believe me, 1, 2, 3

If you believe me, 1, 2, 3

If you believe me, 1, 2, 3

If you believe me, 1, 2, 3

If you believe me, 1, 2, 3

If you believe me, 1, 2, 3, say

It’s alright, now count 1, 2, 3 and forget

Erase all sad memories

Hold my hand and smile

It’s alright, now count 1, 2, 3 and forget

Erase all sad memories

Hold each others hands and smile

Still, I hope there will be good days

If you believe me, 1, 2, 3

If you believe me, 1, 2, 3

Still, I hope there are way more good days

If you believe me, 1, 2, 3

If you believe me, 1, 2, 3

It’s alright, now count 1, 2, 3 and forget

Erase all sad memories

Hold my hand and smile

It’s alright, now count 1, 2, 3 and forget

Erase all sad memories

BTS-2!3! (Hoping for a better tomorow)

Aku pun rasa nak buat lagu lah untuk loyal fan aku siti aishah mhd marzuki.

..::10yearschallenge::..

"We're just kids when we fell in love.. "

I'm very grateful to have you as my bestie since 10 years back

May Allah gather us among those His love ones

Ameenn